Wow, after 2 months of no blogging, I find myself back. I have no idea what to write about. Going through the holidays and with the start of a new year, I'm definitely swamped with ideas I wish I can express, but certainly I will fail to do so. Let me just blabber about random, all-over-the-place ideas.
December has brought crazy things in my life. When I say crazy, I mean extremes! I could sum them all up in a word- NEW. Cliche as it may sound, but I definitely discovered and underwent new things and experiences, new ideas and all the "new" in the world.
New perspectives on people
New beginnings for one of the most important people in my life
New realizations about myself
New appreciation of love
New understanding of relationships
New love for friends
...
Wow,I am lost for words. I have so many things going on inside my head that I can't seem to find a way to write them all down. I won't pretend and lie by saying all the new things that came my way are positive. Trust me, I had to endure negatives also. But thank God, I am refreshed by the new start He has given me.
With all the new things in my life, I am even more grateful for the things and people that remained. They are the ones that matter most, and they stay in my life for several reasons only He could enumerate.
Looking back at the year that has passed, I'd like to thank God for surviving- in all the aspects of the word and in all the aspects of my life. I face a new year ahead, a new beginning, new people, new work, new everything. In spite of the excitement of looking forward, I admit to fear. Yet, I don't know where I get the strength from, but I am ready to face whatever. I am surprised by the epiphanies I get while in the car, or while studying, or whenever. But one thing is for sure. Amidst the fears and uncertainties that fill my heart, I have so much strengths to hold on to. And I have God only to thank. Like I always say,
I am a weak person. But I have a strong God.
and I think that's the only thing that matters.
To new beginnings!
-Nik
