A Way Out

An interesting lecture came about today in the most ordinary, typical day in school. It's about technology and specifically this search engine. Talking about Marshall and his ideas on economics (may I not expound) made the professor wonder on so many realities that reflect what we've been discussing from Smith until present. He goes on showing this article about an asteroid that is supposedly going to hit the earth on 2036. His point basically, humans being scared, nonetheless being free-riders.

I was not moved by this idea, but another one where he said that humans always find a way out- in all the possible meanings of this, in all the aspects of life. We say we're afraid of the things that are yet to come, but we do not do anything about them. We say things we claim to be, yet our actions speak otherwise. We present ourselves in a way we want others to see us, yet in reality we are short of everything we hope to be. We always look at what's ahead of us. We always look for what's missing. We always think we deserve more. Yet we tend to overlook what's in front of us, what we are really missing. And the "future," our "ideals" are our way out.

Then he flashes in his presentation these letters,"lmgtfy." (or something like that) and we were wondering what the hell was that. He never explained. He just said that in the midst of all the popular ones, one emerged apparently to be the "way out," to add variation in the seemingly given realities of the presence of search engines. And trust me, I did not get it at all. Because I had no idea what he's talking about.

But it got me thinking, what is my way out? A few people came across my head, many opportunities that I have been given that for me are dreams fulfilled, TV shows that take my time (or what is left of it), and several other things in my life. The least obvious of the people in my head are my two best friends. Not needing any more explanation, they are one of my escapes. My way out.



But... Another question came to mind. In the first place, why do we need or want a way out anyway?

Well, just random blabbering. A way out from studying. So bye chapter.


-Nik

Welcome Back!

Wow, after 2 months of no blogging, I find myself back. I have no idea what to write about. Going through the holidays and with the start of a new year, I'm definitely swamped with ideas I wish I can express, but certainly I will fail to do so. Let me just blabber about random, all-over-the-place ideas.

December has brought crazy things in my life. When I say crazy, I mean extremes! I could sum them all up in a word- NEW. Cliche as it may sound, but I definitely discovered and underwent new things and experiences, new ideas and all the "new" in the world.

New perspectives on people
New beginnings for one of the most important people in my life
New realizations about myself
New appreciation of love
New understanding of relationships
New love for friends
...

Wow,I am lost for words. I have so many things going on inside my head that I can't seem to find a way to write them all down. I won't pretend and lie by saying all the new things that came my way are positive. Trust me, I had to endure negatives also. But thank God, I am refreshed by the new start He has given me.

With all the new things in my life, I am even more grateful for the things and people that remained. They are the ones that matter most, and they stay in my life for several reasons only He could enumerate.

Looking back at the year that has passed, I'd like to thank God for surviving- in all the aspects of the word and in all the aspects of my life. I face a new year ahead, a new beginning, new people, new work, new everything. In spite of the excitement of looking forward, I admit to fear. Yet, I don't know where I get the strength from, but I am ready to face whatever. I am surprised by the epiphanies I get while in the car, or while studying, or whenever. But one thing is for sure. Amidst the fears and uncertainties that fill my heart, I have so much strengths to hold on to. And I have God only to thank. Like I always say,

I am a weak person. But I have a strong God.

and I think that's the only thing that matters.

To new beginnings!

-Nik

What's up, Mate?

Last Saturday, I was shocked by what I saw on top of our table in the gazebo. I was dumbfounded by that creature that I just had to take a photo of it.



It was amazing. It was actually hard to take a shot of it since it was elongated and thin and stretched and what not. I was marveling at it. Then, suddenly it disappeared. Well, half of it did.

Then I realized. DUH. They were just mosquitoes mating. Tss. I thought I discovered a new species or something.



The wonders of nature. They really do make you wonder. Corny.

-Nik

Showtime

There are just some moments in our lives that make us pause and think what the hell is going on.

I realized the answer to that question- Time. There's a time for everything. After years and years of empty spaces come forced opportunities to fill that gap, without the intention of anything but clarity. It's not that we look forward for things to come in the future, it's more of looking back at the past and realizing and admitting that it has been too far away to go back. It's not something worth it. No hard feelings, plain honesty, only to find out, we don't want anything more than that. It's amazing how we can find something great in "nothing." It's those conversations and intentions that change everything.

-Nik

That's What I'm Here For

Heard this song on the radio this morning. It's a new song by Jason Castro and I love it.

Read carefully.


Goodbye Los Angeles you said with some regret
I'll do my best to find a way to help you to forget
I'm glad you made your way back here to find a better day
Seems like you're getting a little closer to okay

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for

I heard you saying that you're finally feeling free
Blowing kisses to the distant memories
Lately I've caught you smiling a little more
You're beautiful, and I'm all yours

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's why I can hold you just as long as you'll stay
I can tell you what no one would ever say
That it's all right to admit you were wrong
Before you know it, all the scars will be gone

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
When you need someone to find you
When you're hiding from it all
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for

-Nik

Christmas at 113

While putting the Christmas decors at home, I decided to take some shots. Here are a few:

1 it's been a while since I've tried this.


2 That's my reflection. Doing I think a peace sign. How random.


3 Instead of an angel on top of our tree, we put a ribbon.


4 I took this while they were having dinner


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We always want to spend Christmas with our loved ones. For most, it's with our families. For some, with our friends. Whoever we choose to spend our Christmas with, my prayer is for genuine happiness to fill our hearts. We don't deserve anything less than our heart's desire.

-Nik

Happy Birthday Didik!

Didik and I had an awesome weekend. Our total food consumption would probably last us a month! We ate seafood, tons of cake, Ate Ren's specialties and so much more! It was fun!

I've loved birthdays ever since. For me, it's the perfect day to make the celebrant feel special. This month, I got the chance to celebrate my bestfriend's and boyfriend's birthdays with them. Then I realized, I have all the more reason to love birthdays. It's amazing after thinking about it that it is actually the birthday celebrants who make their loved ones feel special when they choose to celebrate their birthdays with them. I felt even more special than Dik.

We only got the chance to take pictures last Saturday because we were busy making ourselves fat! Haha.

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3 Here I think it was supposed to be 31. HAHAHAHA


4 His 3rd cake. Haha


5 They have the same birthday!


6 Happy birthday Dik!


-Nik