Tuesday, November 30, 2010

What's up, Mate?

Last Saturday, I was shocked by what I saw on top of our table in the gazebo. I was dumbfounded by that creature that I just had to take a photo of it.

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It was amazing. It was actually hard to take a shot of it since it was elongated and thin and stretched and what not. I was marveling at it. Then, suddenly it disappeared. Well, half of it did.

Then I realized. DUH. They were just mosquitoes mating. Tss. I thought I discovered a new species or something.

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The wonders of nature. They really do make you wonder. Corny.

-Nik

Showtime



There are just some moments in our lives that make us pause and think what the hell is going on.

I realized the answer to that question- Time. There's a time for everything. After years and years of empty spaces come forced opportunities to fill that gap, without the intention of anything but clarity. It's not that we look forward for things to come in the future, it's more of looking back at the past and realizing and admitting that it has been too far away to go back. It's not something worth it. No hard feelings, plain honesty, only to find out, we don't want anything more than that. It's amazing how we can find something great in "nothing." It's those conversations and intentions that change everything.

-Nik

Monday, November 22, 2010

That's What I'm Here For

Heard this song on the radio this morning. It's a new song by Jason Castro and I love it.

Read carefully.


Goodbye Los Angeles you said with some regret
I'll do my best to find a way to help you to forget
I'm glad you made your way back here to find a better day
Seems like you're getting a little closer to okay

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for

I heard you saying that you're finally feeling free
Blowing kisses to the distant memories
Lately I've caught you smiling a little more
You're beautiful, and I'm all yours

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's why I can hold you just as long as you'll stay
I can tell you what no one would ever say
That it's all right to admit you were wrong
Before you know it, all the scars will be gone

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
When you need someone to find you
When you're hiding from it all
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for


-Nik

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Christmas at 113

While putting the Christmas decors at home, I decided to take some shots. Here are a few:

1 it's been a while since I've tried this.
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2 That's my reflection. Doing I think a peace sign. How random.
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3 Instead of an angel on top of our tree, we put a ribbon.
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4 I took this while they were having dinner
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We always want to spend Christmas with our loved ones. For most, it's with our families. For some, with our friends. Whoever we choose to spend our Christmas with, my prayer is for genuine happiness to fill our hearts. We don't deserve anything less than our heart's desire.

-Nik

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Happy Birthday Didik!

Didik and I had an awesome weekend. Our total food consumption would probably last us a month! We ate seafood, tons of cake, Ate Ren's specialties and so much more! It was fun!

I've loved birthdays ever since. For me, it's the perfect day to make the celebrant feel special. This month, I got the chance to celebrate my bestfriend's and boyfriend's birthdays with them. Then I realized, I have all the more reason to love birthdays. It's amazing after thinking about it that it is actually the birthday celebrants who make their loved ones feel special when they choose to celebrate their birthdays with them. I felt even more special than Dik.

We only got the chance to take pictures last Saturday because we were busy making ourselves fat! Haha.

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3 Here I think it was supposed to be 31. HAHAHAHA
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4 His 3rd cake. Haha
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5 They have the same birthday!
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6 Happy birthday Dik!
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-Nik

PAROL

LOOK HERE.

decorations are not yet done.

but with a little help of camera angling. it looked like its finished.

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-DIK

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Garland Green!

and no.

Not the character Garland Greene.

Hes the guy in CONAIR. singing HES GOT THE WHOLE WORLD IN HIS HANDS!


This photo blog is about the Christmas decor. Garland Green.

Our christmas tree and our stairs filled with garland green with red and white poinsettia.

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-DIK

more photos to come. as soon as the decoration outsides done.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Tricia Garcia

I just had to make that the title- the most used name in Tutoring Club. Haha. Ms. Pat and I go a long way back. I won't go telling you the story of our lives, but one thing's for sure, I'm VERY happy for her.

A proposal in a word is sweet. For me, it's something as important as the marriage itself. It is the beginning of a lifelong commitment to a journey to eternity. What makes it so wonderful is not the where, the when, the how, or the ring. What makes it so great is the thought that the guy planned it all. It is the thought that for at least a minute (totally an understatement), your partner was stressing out on something he knew would matter a lot to you. It is the picture of that guy doing everything, planning everything, making sure everything is perfect not for himself, but for you. It is that offer of a life together. An offer that comes from the guy. Nothing beats that. Proposals are definitely one of the best testaments that love indeed is eternal.

Here's Ms. Pat's engagement ring. Congratulations to you and Noli!

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-Nik

C' Italian Dining

My birthday gift to Didik was a food trip getaway to the very far land of Angeles, Pampanga. Haha. I'm still so amazed by the food that I really can't put into words our experience there. Was the food worth the travel? YEAH. I'd gladly go there every week if possible.

C' Italian Dining for me defines authentic Italian cuisine. This unassuming little place surely is quite deceiving. I'm sorry but I really can't say much. Just please, go to that place. And take Didik and I with you. Haha.

I don't remember the names of the food we ordered. I just know they're AWESOME. By the time our pasta came, we were too full to even hold our cameras. Our pictures barely do justice, but hopefully these will help you picture the food they offer.

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Dik's shots: 3,5,7
Nik's shots: 1,2,4,6,8

-Nik

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Army Wives

I’ve been watching “Army Wives” during this whole break. It paints a picture of the life of the other half of the soldiers who are deployed most of the time elsewhere around the world. It’s a refreshing series that has allowed me personally to get a grasp of what it is like, no matter how fictional it may be.

It’s a good show, with a variety of characters, a group of army wives who have grown close to each other. I’ve learned a lot from that show. That’s how I am. I always take things seriously even if they’re just shows. Haha. I’m sentimental that way.

One of the characters explained how in order to really love a daughter one must love her for who she is so that one may love her even more.

This is true in any kind of love, be it in romantic partners or family. There’s a need to love others for who they are. It is very difficult for this to happen especially when another person has hurt you. Only love makes you see past through tough times and only love can make you see goodness. It’s unbelievably amazing how loving a person who has hurt you by accepting who they really are can take you far. In the end, you find yourselves having that admiration for that person, having a certain pride for knowing that person, and you find yourself falling in love even more everyday, for the only reason that they may have taken away something from you, but has given back more than they can. They made you believe in things people around you call inexistent. They made you believe in change and its possibility. They make you believe in hope for the future, when everything in the past tumbled apart.

Another had a tattoo done on her arm saying “A beautiful mistake.” She explained that nothing in life is a mistake, only things we must learn from. I personally disagree. It is true that we learn from mistakes, but I don’t agree that people don’t make mistakes. We always do. It’s just a matter of how courageous we are enough to admit our mistakes and accept our flaws. If we live our lives thinking we do not make mistakes, only “bad decisions’ we learn from, then I think we may have found ourselves a reason to get away from our responsibility from the consequences of our actions. We may have found ourselves an excuse. It is undeniable that there are mistakes that do us good, but it is also a fact that there are mistakes that are not worth any, that do not do any good to anyone. We should never ever think we don’t make mistakes or that we are incapable of making mistakes, because by just thinking that, we are already committing a huge one. Mistakes are not all that bad. It’s just a matter of character whether or not we choose to learn from them or not and change.

“Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.”




-Nik

Friday, October 29, 2010

TLP- Nik's

(I apologize in advance for typos)

The Little Prince is an extraordinary book that is able to transcend age. Its power to ignite thought is remarkable.

Dik already summarized the whole plot of the story. I would like to focus on the Little Prince’s exploration of the different planets. He encountered several people: the king, the vain man, the drunkard, the businessman, the geographer and the lamplighter. The Little Prince found one thing in common in all of them except for the lamplighter. They all thought of no one but themselves.

The king he encountered was so amazed by the fact the he had a subject in the presence of the Little Prince. He asked the prince to be a judge of himself. He said, “Then you shall pass judgment on yourself. That is the hardest thing of all. It is much harder to judge yourself than to judge others.” I like this statement because it is a genuine truth. People are so enthralled by the fact that can easily judge others. They mislead themselves into thinking that judging is the best way to finding a spot in this world. They forget that the person who they need to judge is no other than themselves. This is a universal truth I’m guilty of failing big time at.

The prince said that vain men never hear anything but praise. It’s so simple, yet full of depth. It’s like saying that all of us are vain in some sense because each one of us chooses what we want to listen to. We always hear, but we don’t always listen. It’s a simple, straight-forward lesson.

The drunkard and the businessman were found out to be the same. Both were going around a circle, not finding a purpose for what they do best- drink for the former and count for the latter. What the prince found out is a lack of reason and a lack of sense that most people are trapped in. We always give excuses and reasons to justify our actions, to show that it’s the better thing to do, only to find out we are nowhere far from where we started.

The character of the geographer for me exemplifies the difference between the book smart and the street smart. They say that the street smart are those who have explored and wandered enough to have gained so much knowledge about the daily happenings of life. They go beyond books. They extend to reality. While the book smart, on the other hand, are the reliable ones when it comes to trivial facts, always easy to memorize, yet unfortunately, what they know only goes as far as what they read. They lack something that the street smart has- the ability.

The geographer was the one who made the prince realize that he has left his flower alone in his planet to live, or better yet to die. By introducing the word “Ephemeral,” meaning threatened by imminent disappearance, the prince realized that what he has left behind, what he has taken care of all his life, is not eternal. What strikes me in this situation is the fact that while the geographer chose to make his life revolve around eternal things, the Little Prince chose to give his life for something that will not last forever. Yet, what the prince had was definitely more valuable.

At the end of every journey, the prince would always say how grown-ups are quite extraordinary. The Little Prince for me symbolizes a fresh point of view on things. I loved how he would always say he only has 3 volcanoes in his possession, one of which is extinct, and a flower, yet he feels like the richest person in the world. When he mentions the extinct volcano, he always says the line “who knows?” It is that hope in a supposedly dead entity that I admire most about him. The things that most of us would think are useless have so much value for the prince, only because he chooses to think that there is more to them that what we have come to believe they could offer. He was also describes as a person who would never stop asking the question until it is answered. It is that yearning to learn and understand that has helped the prince unravel the truths and the learning he has come to gained throughout that journey. It is that constant and relentless pursuit of answers that allowed him to discover.

My favorite part (which is surprising after my very long blog already) is the prince’s encounter with the fox. The word “tame” is the one word in the story that I believe has changed its meaning for me after reading the book. I usually associate the word with animals. Now, I realize it goes beyond that. They defined the word to mean “to create ties” and this meaning has brought a deeper sense to relationships in general. The prince, upon reaching the planet Earth, is dumbstruck at the sight of a thousand roses when all his life he only knew of the existence of one. He thought that the rose he has taken care of all his life is nothing special at all, only part of the ordinary group of flowers. But the fox proved to disagree. He said that because he has tamed that particular rose of his, it will stand out to be the only one amidst the thousand others.

People always find themselves in that situation- a struggle to see past the similarities of the people, places, and things we encounter everywhere and find something special, find something that we could say unique to us. What seems to be ordinary to others is special to us only because we choose and decide to make them so. It’s the time you’ve devoted to them that makes them special and that in turn makes you responsible for them.

A very long sharing, yet I feel I haven’t expressed them all. More to come then!

-Nik

TLP

My interpretation of the famous children book, The Little Prince.


I don’t remember if the pilot in the book was given a name. In any case, he started the book with some sort of a drawing- a snake that ate an elephant. Whenever he showed this drawing to adults, he'd have to explain that it's not a hat but a snake. He thinks that adults lack imagination.

He crashed in the dessert with enough water and he must learn to fix his plane for him to survive. Here comes the little prince.

The little prince asked him to draw a sheep. And he drew them but the little prince criticized his work. Finally, he drew a box and he said that the sheep was inside the box. Ironically he couldn’t see it but the little prince saw the sheep. Therefore, he grew up and lost some of his imagination.

The little prince tells his story, his planet, his explorations and adventures.

The little prince lives in a small planet with 3 volcanoes(2 active,1 extinct) and a flower.

The little prince tends a single flower. The flower is very vain and demands that he does certain things for her. The Little Prince complies, but he doesn’t really know why he loves the flower that much to follow her orders.

Her melodramatic, proud nature is what causes the prince to leave his planet and begin his explorations. Also, the prince’s memory of his rose is what prompts his desire to return. The little prince still loves her deeply because of the time he has spent watering and caring for her.
And her thorns are not there for her to protect her but she see it differently. Her thorns are useless if the sheep would come and eat her, but the rose said that her thorns make the lion afraid of her.
As the journey unravels, the little prince reaches Earth, he meets a fox that tells him the secret of life.

When the fox begs the little prince to tame him, the fox appears to be the little prince’s friend as well as his instructor. In his lessons about taming, the fox argues for the importance of ceremonies and rituals, showing that such tools are important even outside the strict world of grown ups.
The fox said
“One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes”
This is the most compelling line for me in this book. The most important things in life can’t be seen.

Moving forward..


When they(pilot and the prince) were looking for water in the desert. He searched for the well. I see this as teaching that lessons must be learned through personal exploration and not only from books or others' words.

And here comes the snake. The snake is so confident he has mastered life’s mysteries that he tells the prince he speaks only in riddles because he can solve all riddles. The snake is the only absolute. His poisonous bite. Unavoidable truth. Death.

In the end, the eyes can’t see what’s really important because what’s really important can be felt by the heart.


-DIK

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Numb.

I'm sick. I haven't used my tissue box until yesterday since I moved to my room. And I've forgotten how it feels like.

One person I know told me that when he's sick, he's more needy for attention and gets short-tempered. Well, who doesn't right?

This is the perfect time to feel like someone is there to take care of you, not even to stay up late when your body doesn't feel too good, but enough to make you feel like you were thought of, that at the very least, they did their best to stay up and be with you. And if they really couldn't, they'd sleep and not do anything else.

I've forgotten this feeling of numbness actually. This time on my bed, feeling drowsy and all gives me time to think, think of why people make petty lies, smallest, tiniest lies, why people make excuses, why people act the way they are, why people are so selfish, insensitive, proud, and so on. And then, I answer myself.

It's because I make them do so.

Who ever made me think this way?

At the time when my body is confused not knowing whether it's feeling cold or hot, drowsy or not, my mind is clear.

Timing is perfect. I'd gladly do the same for others.

-Nik

Tripping

I am not special. I am human, flawed and fallible in how I allow my ego and emotions to cloud my judgment, sense of integrity, honesty, and loyalty, from what we know is right.  So I have my slip-ups. 

I’m not being comfortable in who and what I am. or at least I used to be. Guilt is built that one can do more or better or not having done enough. 

I may have gone reluctantly or protested in some opportunities, but chances are there was at least a minor element of my own choice involved in stepping in to that situation.

There are times when i feel guilty about something  I’ve done. It propelled me to take action that will eliminate the guilt and clear my conscience.
DONE? No. Why? There’s a constant reminder that I’ve done it and I’m labeled as it is.

Guilt trip its a glorified manipulation. Into taking responsibility for someones feelings. Unfortunately, it ruins the time together, by focusing on the negative, rather than enjoying and appreciating the time.

Should I choose to take the guilt trip?
Whether i take it or not, someone would make me feel that I will never be good enough or do enough.

Not responding to guilt trips requires tremendous strength of character, confidence in myself that i’m making good choices and an unwillingness to buy into any ideas that you are less than. Along with this core is the recognition that I am not responsible for their own feelings. If they want to feel bad because I didn’t agree, that is entirely their issue.  

I need to constantly remind myself that the guilt trip is actually about the person who is trying to give it and not about me.

IT IS NOT ABOUT ME! Are you for real???!

Am i advocating being uncaring or cruel? I’m saying I need to have appropriate boundaries and not let someone else manipulate my decision.

-DIK

November 6, 2010

save the date

-Nik

Monday, October 25, 2010

Nik and Nice

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2010 Trick or Treat - Canyon Ranch

I'd like to say in case people haven't noticed it yet. I love taking photos!
Every opportunity to shoot. I'd grab it.

Anyway, This weekend was hectic for me.
Saturday we surprised the boyfriend of her sister at Sentro, Serendra.
Sunday, Our community here in canyon ranch had a Trick or Treat for the kids. I was asked to help them and I obliged by taking photos of the event.

I stayed there for one hour and gave the kids their treats. and went to Nik. for mass. beer. booze. second chances. buzzkill. ALOK!

Here are some of the photos:
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Click here for the entire set

-DIK