Tripping

I am not special. I am human, flawed and fallible in how I allow my ego and emotions to cloud my judgment, sense of integrity, honesty, and loyalty, from what we know is right.  So I have my slip-ups. 

I’m not being comfortable in who and what I am. or at least I used to be. Guilt is built that one can do more or better or not having done enough. 

I may have gone reluctantly or protested in some opportunities, but chances are there was at least a minor element of my own choice involved in stepping in to that situation.

There are times when i feel guilty about something  I’ve done. It propelled me to take action that will eliminate the guilt and clear my conscience.
DONE? No. Why? There’s a constant reminder that I’ve done it and I’m labeled as it is.

Guilt trip its a glorified manipulation. Into taking responsibility for someones feelings. Unfortunately, it ruins the time together, by focusing on the negative, rather than enjoying and appreciating the time.

Should I choose to take the guilt trip?
Whether i take it or not, someone would make me feel that I will never be good enough or do enough.

Not responding to guilt trips requires tremendous strength of character, confidence in myself that i’m making good choices and an unwillingness to buy into any ideas that you are less than. Along with this core is the recognition that I am not responsible for their own feelings. If they want to feel bad because I didn’t agree, that is entirely their issue.  

I need to constantly remind myself that the guilt trip is actually about the person who is trying to give it and not about me.

IT IS NOT ABOUT ME! Are you for real???!

Am i advocating being uncaring or cruel? I’m saying I need to have appropriate boundaries and not let someone else manipulate my decision.

-DIK