BIZARRE LOVE TRIANGLE

There are just songs that leave an impression, for whatever reason it is. Every time Didik and I would listen to the radio, we would hear songs that would just automatically send thoughts inside our heads. And most of the time, we’re calibrated.

One of the songs that never fails to elicit the same reaction is CRY by Kelly Clarkson. We just adore her, literally left aghast by her voice. Oh Dik, we’re such fans! How about John Mayer’s songs? No comment.

Anyway, if there’s a song that Dik would wish I would not hear, it would be Bizarre Love Triangle by Frente. It’s the song cut short when played on the radio because it just keeps on repeating. And it has such a sleepy feel to it. Every time I hear this song, trust me, it will not leave my mind and I will just keep on singing it. I even requested Dik to study the chords so he can play it on the guitar while I sing. JAMMIN’.

There’s a line in the song that says, “Why can’t we be ourselves like we were yesterday?” People in relationships always find themselves asking the same question at some point in time. They wonder whatever changed in their relationship in the process and what caused these changes to happen. They look back in the past and try to relive how they’ve gotten to know and love their partners and they compare it to how things are at present. Then, the question pops in their head.

I’m guilty of asking this question. I used to look back to how things were in the past and compare it to how things are at present. And I honestly would find myself wishing I was back to where we started. After all, those were glorious days. But recently, I was made to realize that, I’m in a much better place. We are in a much better place.

There is nothing wrong with change- absolutely nothing. There is also nothing unusual with having silent moments because you have nothing else to talk about. Because you’ve spent the first 30 days of your relationship talking on the phone, sharing your life stories with each other- dreams, ambitions, fears, regrets, frustrations, problems, issues- everything to the core. Then you find yourself in the hundredth day of your relationship talking about cats, plants, the sky, radio DJs, blogs and sometimes, even feet. There is nothing wrong with letting loose of all your inhibitions and completely being yourself without trying hard to look good. Because after all, with who can you be most comfortable with aside from your partner? Change always happens. And it sure hits relationships hard.

I don’t ask myself that question anymore. Because I like just the way we are right now. Less talk, more silence. Less phone calls, more chat. Less “trying hard” jokes, more “corny” ones. Less of everything in the past, and more of everything that I’ve always wanted. Change is not bad, change is just plain change. It’s up to you to decide how to handle it. Good thing, I have Dik.

-NIK